I am…
They gave me this name
This name that does not describe me
It paints me as a girl
As a delicate rose
Something to be picked & put on a shelf
Left to witherThey gave me this body
This body that does not fit me
It shows that I am “beautiful”
That I am a “young woman”
That I am something for someone to lay waste to
& destroy my ecosystemI am expected to be soft
To be gentle & kind
& I am none of these
I am angry & violent
I have my rough edges
& I am not a trophy for them to claim
They gave me this name
This name that does not describe me
It paints me as a girl
As a delicate rose
Something to be picked & put on a shelf
Left to witherThey gave me this body
This body that does not fit me
It shows that I am “beautiful”
That I am a “young woman”
That I am something for someone to lay waste to
& destroy my ecosystemI am expected to be soft
To be gentle & kind
& I am none of these
I am angry & violent
I have my rough edges
& I am not a trophy for them to claim
I am a raging wind
Knocking down houses & trees
Shattering windows & blowing down doors
I am a shining star
So bright I will blind them
So hot I will burn them
This name they gave me
Is not who I am
I am no girl, I am no boy
I am simply me
I am a force of nature to be reckoned with
& I am safe & I am strong
& I am free
Enough
I am trying
I am trying my best & it is not enough
I am pleading for her to understand
I am begging for him to recognize
I am imploring that they realize
I am trying not to fail
But it is not enough
It is never enough
I could study during every waking moment
& it would still not be enough
I could do everything they tell me to
& it would still not be enough
I could never say a word other than “yes”
& it would still not be enough
& I think I finally realize that..
That I can’t be what they want me to be
Because I am my own person
They want to relive their lives through me
& that is not what I am in this world for
I just wish I could make them understand
But it is never enough
I am trying my best & it is not enough
I am pleading for her to understand
I am begging for him to recognize
I am imploring that they realize
I am trying not to fail
But it is not enough
It is never enough
I could study during every waking moment
& it would still not be enough
I could do everything they tell me to
& it would still not be enough
I could never say a word other than “yes”
& it would still not be enough
& I think I finally realize that..
That I can’t be what they want me to be
Because I am my own person
They want to relive their lives through me
& that is not what I am in this world for
I just wish I could make them understand
But it is never enough
Fragrances
The scent of roses was in the air
When you told me you loved me
Now as we lay dying,
Side-by-side,
I can smell all your lovely fragrances
An aroma of roses from when we were young
A whiff of apple pie beneath cinnamon,
The sugar to your spice
Lavender & jasmine float through the atmosphere
As they lay chrysanthemums atop our graves
I can still detect
All your lovely fragrances
When you told me you loved me
Now as we lay dying,
Side-by-side,
I can smell all your lovely fragrances
An aroma of roses from when we were young
A whiff of apple pie beneath cinnamon,
The sugar to your spice
Lavender & jasmine float through the atmosphere
As they lay chrysanthemums atop our graves
I can still detect
All your lovely fragrances
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